Saturn transiting my natal Uranus made itself known about five weeks ago. I’d just started the SCD Intro Diet. During this phase of the diet, you can have die-off symptoms. For those of you that don’t know, die-off is when bacteria, viruses, parasites, etc. are dying at a rate too fast for your body to process the toxins their releasing. After a few days, my die-off symptoms had stopped. I woke up that morning and suddenly everything was overwhelming: my routine, the places I’d been going for months, the people I see all the time, how people act, the energy coming at me. My aura was wide open and vulnerable. I saw every leak in my boundaries. I was so ungrounded and overwhelmed that I was shaking. Whatever rose-colored glasses that remained were ripped off. I kept telling myself (and the universe), “No. I won’t do this.” I wanted nothing to do with the chaos all around me.Read More
i have come to a crossroads or standstill (i'm not sure which) in my healing. the first six months i dedicated myself to overcoming the initial trauma and aftermath. as i distant myself from it, i find myself asking, "what's next?" as i break free from everything, i find more blocks, and then more blocks.
i'm asking the right questions, exploring the right avenues, but i still feel trapped. i turned to tarot, something i haven't done in quite some time. tarot is frustrating for me - i look for answers it cannot give my directly.
"i feel like i'm at a crossroads/standstill - what's making me feel like this?" i pulled the hierophant.Read More