Posts tagged narcissistic abuse
Take No Shit: Saturn Transiting Natal Uranus

Saturn transiting my natal Uranus made itself known about five weeks ago. I’d just started the SCD Intro Diet. During this phase of the diet, you can have die-off symptoms. For those of you that don’t know, die-off is when bacteria, viruses, parasites, etc. are dying at a rate too fast for your body to process the toxins their releasing. After a few days, my die-off symptoms had stopped. I woke up that morning and suddenly everything was overwhelming: my routine, the places I’d been going for months, the people I see all the time, how people act, the energy coming at me. My aura was wide open and vulnerable. I saw every leak in my boundaries. I was so ungrounded and overwhelmed that I was shaking. Whatever rose-colored glasses that remained were ripped off. I kept telling myself (and the universe), “No. I won’t do this.” I wanted nothing to do with the chaos all around me.

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the hierophant + spiritual crisis

i have come to a crossroads or standstill (i'm not sure which) in my healing. the first six months i dedicated myself to overcoming the initial trauma and aftermath. as i distant myself from it, i find myself asking, "what's next?" as i break free from everything, i find more blocks, and then more blocks. 

i'm asking the right questions, exploring the right avenues, but i still feel trapped. i turned to tarot, something i haven't done in quite some time. tarot is frustrating for me - i look for answers it cannot give my directly.

"i feel like i'm at a crossroads/standstill - what's making me feel like this?" i pulled the hierophant.

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